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Saturday, August 10, 2002 Couple of things crossing my mind at the moment: Laura...is amazing at creating webpages...I like em all!!! ^_^ They're so...so...pretty & cute (ugh geez my vocabulary is limited) You can check out her cool page and find Alaska stuff on it too...including a newsletter, pictures and more! Just visit Laura amazes me I'm really warm...must turn on a fan... I have twelve days before I move back into school and start my second year of college!!!! Oh goodness...when did the first year ever start???? I've been blogging alot lately...guess that's a good thing right? ^_^ I'm motivated to blog more too cause I noticed after I put up my counter...that I have readers! Yeah!!! Thanks you guys...it's....it's....nice of you (boy am I feeling...feeling...uhhh not eloquent right now...ok I'm just digging myself deeper aren't I?....not eloquent...blah) Maybe it's just writer's block...yeah that's it...writers block! But you know whatelse? Ever since I've put up the counter...I've been wondering....WHO ARE YOU???? Hmmm???? Reveal yourselves!!! Tell me who you are!!! posted by Sewa at 3:25:00 AM # Friday, August 09, 2002 As some of you know, poetry is a big thing to me. I find it to be fascinating, that in so few words, one can say so much. I remember it was in the fifth grade when I first wrote a poem that I was proud of. It was based on halloween...a rhyme about candy, gum, popcorn and whatever else...ha...rather kiddish. Ever since then I found myself writing poetry from time to time. My appreciation for these peculiar formations and placements and usages of words only grew deeper. Alot of times, that is where the lyrics of very touching songs come from. I now find myself searching for a deeper meaning or "hidden message" everytime I see poetry. I'm really not an avid reader, but when it comes to poetry, I try to "feel" and search for what the author is communicating. And now I find myself trying to do the same thing. I try to find an escape through writing poetry. Especially at times of extreme saddness or extreme anger. In this case my anger is the ink. The pen is the outlet where my agression flows. And majestically, the anger flows from me onto the paper and it's all absorbed into the paper and now I can do whatever I want with my "tangible" anger. I can crumple it I can burn it I can throw it away. I also write when I feel blue/depressed/sad...the kind of blue that many single/lonely people find themselves feeling. I guess that's when the ink becomes my tears, the words become what the tears want to say. And usually I keep this poetry so that at times I can go back and see how silly I was at that moment in time. I remember once, I was on this cleaning spree, and I saw and old shoebox. And at that moment I was cleaning out my closet, so I was about to throw the shoebox away but I noticed poetry on it. And then the memory came flooding back that I had once written poetry on a shoebox while just sitting there on the floor of my room. I guess when it comes to writing, there are these times where my mind and my hand seem to become one. Or in this case my fingers with the keyboard and my mind. But whatever the case, I find it often times to be soothing. There are alot of times that I wish that I could share some of the things I write a hardcopy of with others. And then have them read it and have them understand the "hidden message." But I guess that's why it's special to me, only I know the secret behind it unless I tell. I guess all of this talk about me writing poetry I should let you guys in on some sometime. Well I promise I will...real soon too. I've been meaning to post some of it. I can give you a few of my favorites too...I seem to do kinda bad with titles though. A few of my favorites are titled "You"...."Me"...."Who Is God." You can read who is God now if you want to...I posted it awhile ago on Sept 26, 2001. Just to let you know, there is hidden stuff there. You just have to look. And I think I ended up throwing that shoebox away...but I do remember VERY vaguely on there what I wrote. I guess I can share whatever I have left of that in my mind with my blog before it all dissappears and vanishes forever out of my memory. I guess I can call it "Shoebox" He said "I love you." She said "I love you." He said that he loved her. She said that he loved him. She said he said "I love you." He said she said "I love you." But she said he only said and never did. But he said she only said and never did. It's only He Said...She Said... He Said She Said.... That's as best as I can remember it...man after typing out so many "saids" it's starting to look like it's spelled wrong to me. I hate it when that happens. But yeah...feel free to critique and comment. I welcome anything! Seriously! I like feedback. Don't hesitate to tell me I stink/don't make sense/confuse you/whatever. Or tell me if I just ramble...like now! Ok it's 7 thirty in the morning and I haven't gone to sleep yet. I have so many things on my mind...will just have to write more later. Till next time... posted by Sewa at 7:28:00 AM # Wednesday, August 07, 2002 BAHHHH!!!!! GRRRRR!!!!! UGHHHH!!!!! AIYAAA!!!!!!! posted by Sewa at 3:40:00 AM # Tuesday, August 06, 2002 If you'd like to SOME of the NUMEROUS photos we took in Alaska, you can go here Photo credits:Dan & Jocelyn or you can go here but for this one you'll need to sign in with "llz719" Photo credits: Larry Enjoy!! ^_^ posted by Sewa at 12:25:00 AM # Monday, August 05, 2002 You know what??? I hate physics! I really do. I had my schedule for this upcoming semester all worked out. I got into my classes and I was required to take a physics course too. And at that time they wouldn't like me take a physics lab which is required with my physics course. Well FINE then! Not like I want to take it anyways. And now that is the ONLY thing on my schedule that is not fixed. Ever SINCE enrollment started ALL the sections for the physics labs are FULL. And so I call the school and ask for an override. What do they tell me???? Well we don't give overrides for physics labs. And so I ask well are you gonna open up more sections then? She says, no we're not, you'll just have to wait till the week RIGHT before classes start and hope something opens up. @#$%^&*()?!?!?!?!?! The week before??? HOPE??? Ok first of all I'd like to get my schedule set BEFORE then so I'll be able to buy my books and get whatever else I need. Secondly I just looked at the enrollment...they have enough lab sections for 480 people MAX. And they ALREADY have 862 enrolled IN THE STUPID course! Are they idiots??? Do they NOT know that that does NOT MAKE SENSE? Yeah my chances of something opening up are SOOOO GREAT!!! 862...vs...480 oh hmm let me think!!!! Thirdly....HOPE something opens up? Ok so what if it doesn't???? Am I supposed to just leave it? Do I not have to take it? In that case I hope something DOESN'T open up! Grrr...do I sound like a B---- right now? Or do I have a point? posted by Sewa at 1:52:00 PM # |
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