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Saturday, October 04, 2003 Haaaaaapppppyyyyyy Birthdayyyyy Lizzie!!!!!! posted by Sewa at 9:04:00 PM # Grin...smile...grin...*sigh*...grin...smile... That's all I could do yesterday during and after the KCF/CCF joint mtg. God works in so many ways and it's so true that when you come together to honor Him there is no difference. We were all created in the image of God and we're all brothers and sisters and children of God. It's so great though to know that we're all the same we're all so unique and just people watching for a few mins I saw immense talents whether it be worship team or behind the scenes or those that just make people feel welcome and at home. Props to the worship team for blowing me right outta my seat. Wow. All in all it was a fabulous mtg and the message was fantastic and what did we play afterwards? Line charades(sp)/telephone? And bouncy knockout something? Bouncing knockout? I came to the conclusion though that I have no movie knowledge whatsoever....I thought something was Star Wars when it was Dumb and Dumber???? Oiy....tisk tisk. I've never seen any of those, nor have I seen Titanic or American Pie/II/Wedding. Sheesh...I'm not a nerd though...maybe I need to stop watching the same movies over and over. Then some peeps went bowling at Holiday afterwards. Joyce threw the bowling ball in the opposite direction of the lane...I nearly died laughin. Then the party continued afterwards at our apt. I nearly killed three people and myself in the process of bringing people over though...I feel so bad. Whoops. It was a long night yes but I'd do it all over again in a heartbeat. posted by Sewa at 9:01:00 PM # Thursday, October 02, 2003 You know last year the IM east was across the street from West McDonel where I lived. The year before during freshman year it was even farther cause I lived in Holmes. Although it was still really clost both years. But the sad thing is...the closer the workout facility the less I go. It seems to be this horrible trend. Freshman year I went nearly everyday. Last year I went on and off. And now in the apartments when the really nice workout facility is literally right outside my door, as in "I can see it sitting on my couch" close...I have never gone. *sigh* But I did swim a few times which is good right? I was like oh no it's gonna be attack of the quadrupal chins soon! But I said to Lizzie the one thing that prolly keeps us in shape here, is the constant laughing at all times of the day/afternoon and night. And tonight I tried on my class ring from HS and umm I dunno what happened....apparently you can lose weight on your fingers? What used to be a nice fit on my right ring finger, now falls off and it's too big even for my middle finger. It now fits on my index finger. Strange. Just for kicks...you'll understand if you try Burt's Bee Facial Kit... "It smells like 409 citrus cleaner" "ewww..." "It reminds me of 'shuen mei.'" "Oh that's lovely first you clean your face with 409 and then you put on poo and then you put on war paint...only then have you gone through the rites of passage" "I fell in poo...eww you have poo poo on your face" "I'm going camoflauge" "Oh I can't laugh...my face is so tight!...my face is cracking...eww" "AHAHAHAHA" posted by Sewa at 1:38:00 AM # Monday, September 29, 2003 Tonight in the apt...(hope it doesn't gross anyone out we've just been having communication issues around here) A:"Have you ever thought about whether you're going to breast feed or bottle feed?" B:"I am NOT going to breast feed my kids" C:"Breast feed or what was the other option?" A&B: "Bottle feed." C:"Oh for a second I almost thought you said breast feed or bowel feed. And I was gonna say..." B:"Eww that's gross." A: AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA *pounds fist on table* AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH *breathe* AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA posted by Sewa at 12:37:00 AM # I've come to the conclusion that fighting tears is a hard thing yes but usually I'm victorious. But in one case I always get owned and schooled and broken. I can blink them away when it comes to some movies, I can tilt my head sometimes when I'm feelin' sappy, or even just let them make me a little glassy-eyed when it comes to friends that make me feel so loved. But when it comes to trying to fight back the tears because of God it's a futile battle. Today in service it just wasn't gonna happen. No fighting this time. Although reluctant that I had to give in, I couldn't do it anymore and a few of them trickled down my cheeks. The feeling of crying and tears running down is nearly foreign to me now it's as if I've manually plugged my tear ducts so they won't work. I wasn't even gonna go to service today so I could study some more but the last few bible studies I've been to have got my mind (that seems to be suffering from atrophy) thinking a little. So I was like "ok, sacrifice right...I can nap later if I'm sacrificing some sleep now." (oh how generous of me right? psht) But I got there and sometimes the music worship is just mind blowing. I'm sure you all know the song "Amazing Love." A little of the lyrics are below... I'm forgiven because you were forsaken. I'm accepted, you were condemned. I'm alive and well your spirit is within me. Because you died and rose again. Amazing love how can it be? That you my King would die for me? Amazing love I know it's true. And it's my joy to honor you. In all I do I honor you. Everytime I sing this song, it hits home and it hits hard like a bomb. Although the words seem far too many to describe my mood the past few days I haven't been able to channel them out in ways I usually do. Then to top it all off they also did a dramatic skit today and another clip about prayer and how it's our window to God. In the skit, one scene just froze in my mind. Everytime I neglect Jesus and avoid him I'm driving the nails into his wrists even deeper and hurting him more. I'm securing the nails and making him stay there as if he were dead and not alive and active in my life. He wants to be there for me and he is yet I'm not letting him . So there was no fighting it today, not that I haven't realized what's been going on, I'm just choosing to numb myself for some reason that's unknown even to myself. I've numbed myself so much that I won't let myself cry if I can help it. During the summer I cried too much at home. I just remember crying alot around my birthday every other day or so. And it's been a long time since I've just broken down and let go. I'm stubborn and I'm numb...right...that's lovely. So today as a few tears fell I quickly wiped them away and continued singing, trying to feel joy. As I said...futile. When God wants to get to you, He will. Right now I'm dreading it...I don't wanna break down I hate crying. posted by Sewa at 12:25:00 AM # Sunday, September 28, 2003 Umm I'm in this super mushy gushy mood currently. Don't know what triggered it. But it's mushy not as in boy girl mushy but friends are the best mushy. It started today after apple picking which was fabulous btw. Got tons of apples and cider and donuts for our apt, yum. So as I was driving home I just couldn't speed enough to go pick up Cassie for some reason. Then I told Jon that I missed him and I do...he's a great bud to have...then told a few people that I love them and I really do! And how with Saw Saw Day I feel like I've known her forever but it's only been around 2 years and some and how when she cries a part of me inside hurts too cause she's just sooo cute. But I'm thinkin' oh dear what has gotten into me. I needed to hug someone and while I gave Lizzie a hug when she came home I nearly cried for some reason. (I got way too close to crying...way way too close...nearly couldn't look her in the eye while I was talking to her) Yeah...I must be really long over due for a good cry... But my friends are so fabulous, even those I've had bumps and scratches with...even those I don't see so often...even those that I've only just met...aiya....what is wrong with me??? posted by Sewa at 1:55:00 AM # |
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