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Friday, October 05, 2001 Point of Escape I harbor a sadness, It's true extent, no one knows. Except for me, Alone in the shadows. I let the One shine. I let the One be. But yet the One is not satisfied. No, still not happy with me. I'm tired of bearing this burden. I truly am. But yet I cry and yet I endure. But I beg you, please, no more. I've reached a point of hate. I've reached a point of frustration. I've reached a point of anger. But when is it that I reach a point of escape? You know when someone really makes you really upset and you really want to yell at them but you get so mad to the point you cry? That's like my day in one sentence. It actually did start out pretty well going into a chem quiz which I didn't know anything about I feel I did pretty well and I got the chem quiz back from last week which I thought I bombed...I did pretty well. So I'm like hey...it's a good day...weather is still rather nice. Go eat lunch in the cafe...after lunch things when downhill....well actually that's like not even the case...downhill is a gradual process...I took more like a 10000 mile plunge. It's funny how one person can ruin my day in a mere 10 mins. Bring me to the point of tears, ha, it's amazing how much words can bother and hurt. Really wouldn't the world be a much better place if people knew what they were really doing and saying. The capabilities of the human tounge...wow. Really my problems with (oh let's just call this person "sparty" for now) sparty seem to occur more frequently and my frustrations are building because I don't know how to deal with sparty and sparty always makes me cry. Not to mention belittle, annoy and ruin me beyond repair. Ughhh. I don't know what to do...but thank God for friends, the siblings that He just forgot to give us. They're amazing people...they know when something is wrong...they'll sacrifice their time for you and they will listen and try to their best abilities to cheer you up and to give you their best advice in handling your situations. I really love my friends and they do amaze me when they're able to sit and listen to me half sob/half attempt to talk and listen to me blow my nose because I've been crying so hard. Even when they could be doing their own thing and it's 12 at night. *sigh* Enough of this chaotic episode. Verse: "I thank God upon my every remembrance of you" Philippians 1:3 posted by Sewa at 1:22:00 AM # Monday, October 01, 2001 So another weekend has passed here at MSU. This weekend on Saturday, the MSU CCF (Chinese Christian Fellowship) had their first praise night at the McDonel Kiva. The night was a great success. I did refreshments and thought...hmm what could I possibly make...knowing that I had a budget to work with. Luckily someone suggested rice krispie treats. I'm thinking...hmm the last time I tried making those...it was a good few years back and the whole thing was a catastrophe. I put too much butter or something cause it was HECKA soggy. Eww. So I called my good friend Lindsay's granma...and granma Leong makes some kick butt rice krispie treats...she told me the instructions and proportions etc...and cautioned me NOT to burn the butter with too high of a flame. Lovely...so I'm all set right...buy all the stuff...get to the house where I'm supposed to make things...I've got plenty of time before all the stuff needs to be done...no worries....wrong. I went to was the Inter Varsity house...which is more like an office and meeting place for Christian fellowship groups so they don't usually utilize the kitchen...so....I get to the kitchen...no stove top...free standing burner?....nope...nothing. At that point I was in a state of....$*&#T$*%@#???? Therefore I looked at the tiny microwave...hmm my second time of attempting to make rice krispie treats...got a good recipie...but I'm missing the crucial part of a kitchen...I proceed to attempt to make it and see what I could do with the microwave....yes SUCCESS....I was able to make them with a microwave and a microwave only...they were thouroughly enjoyed by all who came...WHEW what a relief...now I realize that I can make them in my DORM! Other than my little panic attack everything went awesome...my favorite girl group, eLLe performed *^_^*...Dave's band came from U of M to play and they did awesome. A pretty good amount of people showed up and even Rich, Queenie, and Kin, came all the way from home home. But in the end I hope that praise night did touch the hearts of those that may be hearing the word for the first time or may be have heard the word but have not accepted Jesus Christ as their savior. The skits were amazing...it really reminded my of what really matters in the end. I nearly cried seeing the skits. After everything was over...a whole mob of us hit USB...yummy...including the visitors...FUN! I love to hang out with my friends. But over this weekend...all the anticipation all the excitement went by in a flash. Back to school...blah...back to boot camp...blah...back to monotonous droning of professors...blah... posted by Sewa at 6:03:00 PM # 
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